Missing or Lonely?

I find myself thinking more and more about my failed marriage and Joe lately. I can't figure out why. Am I missing him? I don't really think so. I think I miss more of what we used to have. I miss the good times, the great times. I think more I'm just really lonely. I don't have a bond with anyone here. Nothing and no one really great that I look forward to seeing every day. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, but I miss the bond and the companionship I had with Joe. And I hate that I feel this way. I hate that I am sort of missing any part of him, especially the way he treated me. I want someone who loves me. Someone I look forward to coming home to everyday, or waiting for him or her to come home to me. I hate this! I hate this so much!!!