Another wedding!!!!

It's terrible for me to be frustrated, but yes, my youngest cousin gets married tomorrow, and yes I have to be there. I don't have a choice. It is only right, I mean he came to my wedding. I loved my wedding. I really did. It went off without too many hitches, and it was almost everything I could have dreamed of. The only thing that in hindsight is bad, is that I married Joe. Blah! Boo! Don't get me wrong. I loved him with all of my heart, I really thought we were going to be a forever thing, but that was obviously not the case. There is only so much one can take of the suspicions, the name calling, the putting downs. Its almost over. We will be separated for one year on the 22nd and as soon as I can, I would like to be rid of him for good. Unfortunately, there are those memories. Sometimes I wish I could get rid of them. But then again, he and there are such a big part of my life that it is just not possible. It would be like just one big empty hole in my head and my heart. 
And this is something I am noticing. I have used this blog to speak mostly about my failed marriage and my asshole soon to be ex-husband. But then again, it is not like I get to talk about it to other people. Sometimes I think I need to speak to a therapist about it, but then again, it only really bothers me when there are these family functions going on and I am there alone. It makes me miss being married. Going to bed alone makes me miss being married. But I do not miss him!!!


Here is some bit of good news for me. My goddaughter Shaniya was born on Tuesday the 4th. She is beautiful. My poor K'Mari is so jealous. I don't blame her. It is a difficult process for a new baby to be brought into the house when you are only a year and half old and you have been the baby for so long. But even though they won't see it. Congratulations Shana! And Shaniya, K'Mari, Brayden, Godmommy Jenn loves you all very much!