Missed a day, but what a day..its a good thing kind of day!

So I spent most of yesterday at my grandmother's house and at the storage facility. A big upside, I sold almost all of my belongings. Down side, I sold all of my belongings. It was difficult. Its hard seeing all my stuff crammed into the storage building then selling it to strangers. But at least it is gone and I don't have to pay for storage anymore. Yay! But I will miss a few of my things. Not my table though. I didn't want it in the first place. I did not get as near as much money as I wanted for it, but I don't have to pay for storage anymore so that is always good. The less money I have to pay to people the better for me. 
So my gout flare up has almost subsided. The pain is very minute, that I can barely tell it is there. I mean, right now, I can feel it because I've been on my feet all day, but, at least it isn't as bad as Thursday. I'm not crying anymore so that is always a good thing!
All this change in the weather is messing with my sinuses. But there is a storm coming through sometime soon, so I really need to get off my but and go do laundry. But I'm feeling lazy and tired. I really just want to go to bed, but I can't. I have Tamera stopping by sometime tonight to finish up her party. Or tomorrow...I don't know which...but as long as I get my sale in...yay! It was still a really fun party! I had a blast. I like small parties. 
I am glad my business is taking off, I was starting to worry...

End of the day once again.

Well like the title says, it is the end of the day, and it has been a good day. A day I have enjoyed throughly! My party this afternoon went great. Only a few hundred dollars in sales, but got three party bookings! Looks like my Pure Romance business is starting to take off! I am real excited about it! I may even have my first daughter. She is the next to have a party so far on my calendar! I am uber excited. There isn't a whole lot of money rolling in, but I am hoping that changes soon. I hope I get so many clients that my calendar is always full! 

Is wondering what today will bring...

So turns out the hurt toe...yeah...its gout. I'm not happy about it, though the doctor told me it was a very mild case. I could have kicked him with my good foot. Thursday was spent in tears for a good part of the day just because the pain was so bad. But now he has me on Steroids and it is helping the pain alot. I can almost walk normally. Which is good. Having a shoe on is painful, but I am going to have to put up with it. I have a Pure Romance gig today, so I have to show up in shoes. Blah.
But I am so excited for my party this afternoon! I really should be getting ready for it instead of blogging about it, but I had to post!!! I really want my business to take off...I wish others who promised to have a party would book one. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that a few of Tamera's guests book a party.... Here's hoping.

End of the day and wayyyy past my bed time....

I bet you have no idea how much I hate saying that. I am a night person. I could normally stay up for hours, but because I have to be at work soooooo early, I am super tired right now. I even fell asleep while watching tv with mom. Oh well...what can you do?
Its the end of another day in my life, past my bedtime, and the only thing I have to curl up with is my teddy bear. Yes I have a teddy bear. He is the most constant man I have in my life. But if I didn't have him to cuddle with, a pillow would be there, so don't think I'm weird. I just got used to cuddling with something.
Well time for bed. Goodnight.

Life as today brings it

So today was a good day, though I didn't get off on time today, but then again...I almost never do. Best part about today though, the little 8 month old that isn't my Mari, didn't want to go back to him mommy after coming to me. So I walked up to the mother and the baby and he reached for me. The mom and I were talking about something, I think his shoes and socks because he never likes to keep them on, and after a while, she reached out for him. He grinned at her, shook his head and lain his head down on my shoulder. We laughed, it was cute. So a few minutes later, she reached for him again. And again the same thing. SO FREAKING CUTE!!! The final time, he actually waved bye bye to his mommy! For the first time since I have met this child, I actually wanted to take him home!
Once he left, so did I and went to dinner with my Fayetteville girls. Had a good time. I enjoy our dinner dates. We even went to the mall afterwards to have something else to do...that was free. The mall has changed alot.


On a random note...my toe hurts and I don't know why...

Getting Excited

My cousin and I have plans to go up to Charlotte around the 11th of next month. I am so excited to be seeing all my friends. I miss them very much. I am kind of surprised that I miss it there, though I think it is just the people I care about that I miss so much. I miss going to my knitting group every Tuesday and hanging out with Jessie afterwards. I miss knowing that I am going to have a girls night at least once every week. I miss knowing that when I went to that godawful job on Saturday's and Sunday's that I would be spending half the day on the phone with Jill. I just miss it. 
Don't get me wrong, I am glad to be rid of the job that I had, and I love the one I have now, but it isn't like me and my co-workers are friends. Brandon I have known forever so he is more like my little brother. Jessica and Tamera, well I talk to them, and think of them as nice people, we are acquaintances, not friends. Oh well. It isn't a great big deal, but it is the truth. 
I am glad I rekindled friendships with the ones I have lost touch with. Vanessa, Leslie, Anita. I miss Shana though. She is always so busy. She is always working. It sucks.We were always so close, though we don't have a thing in common. She  made me godmother of her two children. I love those kids, K'Mari especially. That is my little princess, and the closest I'm going to get to a daughter....

Day two and just looking to get some thoughts out

Exactly what it says in the title. It is day two of my blog and I just have so many things floating around in my head, and my brain feels a little heavy. So excuse me if this post feels like I am babbling. It happens.

I'm watching all these bridal shows today. Say yes to the dress, Bridezilla, Father of the Bride. As much as I love these shows and movie, it makes me think of my wedding. I loved my wedding, it was my dream. But my marriage didn't last, and that pisses me off. I used my dream wedding on a man I no longer love. I still remember it, all of it. It was a fabulous week and a half, but after it...after it was the downfall. He got fired! He got fired the day after we came back from our honeymoon!!!! What kind of shit is that?! I think I should have known then it wasn't going to last, but I didn't. I was faithful. I was hopeful. I was optimistic. I wanted everything to be perfect...and it wasn't. It was far from. And now, I have waisted my dream wedding and I can't ever have another one like it, and that pisses me off so freaking much!!!
Okay, that little rant is over...

So my cousin, Dave, and I are heading to Charlotte next month to spend the weekend. I am so excited about it. It is our good friend's birthday. Matt. He actually stood up for Joe at our wedding, but since he was my friend first, and he wants nothing to do with my soon to be ex-husband, he and I have decided to remain friends. Well his birthday is on the 15th, and since he is heading to Tenn. the weekend after, we are going up the weekend before to celebrate with him. I have told all my friends, so we are making plans to go to Osaka and have some yummy sushi, and great laughs! I am so excited about it!!! I'm even going to bring Vanessa. She needs a weekend out of Fayetteville.

I spent last night with Mom. We watched movies, ate pizza, and had a good time. Sine we are working, we don't get to spend much time together. Especially since I have to be at work at 6:30am, I am up early, so I go to bed early. I am still not a morning person, but I love my job, so I put up with getting up while it is still dark outside and working late. And Mom, well she works late a few nights a week, and goes to a restaurant  on Wednesdays to have dinner with her friends. So generally when she is getting home, I am winding down from the day and getting ready to go to bed. Or I am at my grandparents' for dinner and conversation. It just happens that way. So we really don't get to spend a whole lot of time together. We had a few laughs last night. I teased her when she started falling asleep while sitting in her broken office chair. She played on her computer and I knitted. It was a good night. I tried to hang with her and stay up too late, but I couldn't do it. By 2am I was exhausted. I went to bed and passed out!

I am thinking today will be spent going through more boxes. I really need too. I need to find all my stuff. Everything is spread everywhere. I need to go to my storage building and get rid of the crap in there. Anyone want a kitchen table or a couch?

First post...so much to say

I am so glad that I decided to start this blog. I really need a way to get my thoughts out, and sometimes, I just can not sit down and write it out on a piece of paper. However, I just do not know where to start.
I guess normally people start with a little bit about them...I figure, this is for me, I know enough about me that I do not really care to write about it.
I am deciding that it is probably a good idea to talk about my separation. Yes, I have been married for two years, and just this past October my husband decided to talk to a lawyer about separating, and moved out. Me, I was totally fine with it, and still am. But there are things I miss a lot. Not about him, I don't think, but things like waking up next to someone. Getting a hug and being held when I wanted one....mostly, I miss the companionship of having a partner. Does that make sense? It does in my head. But then again, many things make more sense in my head than it does down on paper, or in this case, in a blog. But there are other things that frighten me far more than my divorce. In all honesty, though there are things I miss, I am glad it is almost over, I am glad to be rid of him and his drama, and I refuse to let it get me down and out and effect my life anymore!
When we got married, I lived just outside of Charlotte, and lived there for many years...eight years in fact. I have really good friends there that I miss like crazy. I don't miss the job I had, but the people I know and love very much, I miss and I hate that I don't get to see them everyday like I used too. I moved back home just before Christmas and rekindled a long lost friendship. We talk almost everyday and see each other often. We had dinner with two other friends I lost track with when I moved. I cried when I saw them both. I am afraid that I might cry when I see my friends in Charlotte next month. I can not wait to see them!
But with all that said, I am having a hard time adjusting to being back in Fayetteville. I am having a hard time being in the house with my mom again. Its not that I am not happy about it, but you know...after so many years of living on my own, and now, here I am, almost thirty, and I am living with my mother again...

Oh well. Time to make the best of things...