Internet Dating

So sometime last year, I joined a dating website in hopes of meeting someone. That person may not be my forever mate, but someone to ease the loneliness. I have met a few men. Some we met in person, some not, but all I established a small relationship with in one way or another. The last man did not work out. Not that he wasn't a nice guy, but he bored me. And of course he admitted many times that he had a bad temper, and I have already lived through that. No thank you. Now I am talking to another man. He says he just moved to NC from California and is staying with a friend. He is waiting on his refund check to come and meet me. He does not have a car. We will see. I want to meet him. I want him to work out. But there is that part in the back of my mind that is saying "Don't believe him". We will see. Well...I will see. He says he could see himself with me forever. As lovely as that sounds, I still have doubts.
Hey, legally, I am still married to Joe. I think it is time to get that over and done with. I don't want to be tied to him anymore. I am ready for my maiden name back. I am ready to get rid of that part of my life. I think tomorrow I will be talking to my grandparents about the money for it. If my grandfather still wants to give me the money for it, great, if not, I will take the money out of my trust for it. Of course I should probably take money out of my trust for living expenses. Its the way of things. I have to live, and I have to help my mom live. I have to find a job. I have to do something.

Been along time...need to do better

So here it is, a new year and I have decided to do better for myself. I am sort of dieting with my mom, I finished school and looking for a job as a certified phlebotomist, and I promise to write something in my blog at least once a week. Not that anyone read this, but it will make me feel tons better. Hey, did you know that Google Chrome says that Phlebotomist is spelled wrong? Its not even an option! Funny.
Ok, back to the point of tonight's post. I need a way to get my thoughts down and out of my brain, hence the title of my blog "Trapped Always In My Mind". I believe will also set up a new blog just for my crafts and finished knitting things. That way I can tell a little story and even post pictures of them and perhaps those that gave those crafts good homes. But that is something for the future. For now, its just thoughs, ideas, and whatever comes to mind.